Clouded Thoughts

I don’t have a whole lot to say today, at least not right now. Actually, that’s not true – I have a whole lot that I want to say, but I haven’t gotten the clarity I need to figure out what I should say, when I should say it, and how I should say it.
It happens one moment words are overflowing , & the next you are blank !

It’s like the black outs you have , you don’t remember the things that you don’t want to remember or sometimes the opposite the things that you really wish to remember , but you stand between the lines , you remember not so important things , that really doesn’t make sense.

I guess its about the mix feelings that push you to this condition , which is very frustrating as well as scary , you don’ t wanna go to that road , but than again you are not convinced to go the other way round either , its like either you will forgive or end up being Anakin .

You know its like those feeling when you can’t say it out loud , coz than it would be a BIG DEAL , but than again not saying or doing anything would kill you from inside , you can’t let the fire inside you burn the whole place down , & you can’t let it blow you either , you need to have that power to control it and let it out in a controlled manner …. yeah now I am getting somewhere ..

I know this post is very confusing & seems so random , but than thats how the state of my mind is, the words that are coming out just shows me how complicated the network inside is…but I need to let it out , if I shut down now , than I will never know , I don’t won’t to turn cold stone head or too dry , I would prefer loud …..

Even if I’m in a bad mood I don’t take it out on anyone, or at least try not to.I can’t fix everything I tried to fix that but it didn’t work I guess, I don’t believe in over analyzing thing , I think that s the reason everything gets messed up in the first place , it makes small things look like A BIG BLUNDER , but eventually its nothing , if you can just shrug it off , it would be  lot easier for everyone … But I guess am the only one who looks at thing like that , & that makes me Odd one out >>>

Lolz, not the first time I have been out of the place , no matter how much I try to blend in , eventually I am reminded , I don’t belong in there , but no am not going to run , escape , hide , no , not this time , its time , I start taking actions for things I should have,  I’ve become so cautious about not giving the wrong signals and not misinterpreting them. So I need things to be clear. : “Best defense is a good offense”~ Wolverine

I know the fact that  I should probably write something high impact that makes sure to keep the positiveness of my posts , but than the truth is I should also be honest while I am writing so here it is

Sometimes we write for ourselves. Other times we write for other people. This time, I’m writing just to write.



Creativity finds its ways ….

Creativity is something that cannot be learned , taught or forced upon , it has no rules or boundaries , it can merge any no of things , can bring out beauty in any odd things , can link up very different things , that you might not have imagined to be.Thats its real beauty .I just saw couple of beautiful photos that can help me express my point.



Creative way to show Family Tree …


Butterflys in my stomach …..



Eat me , If you Can … 😀



Now thats an inspiring quote >>>



A very humorous Product Design ~ >


Very thoughtful Message , a pic worth thousand words ….


All I wanted to say with this post is , “All children are artists,” Pablo Picasso famously said. “The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up.”



Teenage Dreams

So technically I have completed teen-age , but I still love to be that teenage girl , so hyper , full of excitement , those butterfly feelings jumping in the stomach , the not so important topics to worry about ….

It reminds me all those First things that we try in our Teen phase , the most memorable (embarrassing moments included) happens in our life during this phase , we are big enough to act independent , the Very First things we try,
the first Moped drive , the first crush , the first date , the first part time job , the first concert , the first heart break …. so many list of the very first things …. & those are the experiences we never forget .

A diary we always wanna read when we look back at time ,  the make overs we go through , the frustration that clouds our mind, the mistakes we make , new phobias we adapt , some psychologist also refer the Teen phase as one of the darkest phases in human life , a stage , which changes people ‘s lives for ever ….. But whatever people say , my favorite phase in life is gonna be the teen phase , cause childhood as people say :

Childhood is like being drunk
Everyone remembers what you did, except you !!

so how can it be my favorite , when i don’t remember what i did !!

Teenage is not something you could describe , or understand if you have not gone through the real teenage life ,
its like a  A song, a poem, a story? adventure, romance, or something gory? Should I rhyme?

Friendship means like a world , when you are a teen , your life revolves around that , the fights , the controversy , the parties , the nightouts , the risks , everything you do , is influenced by your friends , that is not something that s gonna happen when you are adult , we start thinking more individualistic , our decisions are based on our expectations of future , but as a teen as i said , friendship means a world ….

I believe we learn a lot during our this phase ,  I’ve learned about the world, and my knowledge has allowed me to relax, and accept things for what they are. One of the best things I’ve learned in my teen phase is these little things don’t really matter.I also learned to let go of things , holding on would just make life stressful ….

Even the reason behind my favorite shows  like The vampire diaries , teen wolf , game of thrones , is my love for this teenage life , i know some people say it is the toughest phase & all that stuff , but life turns out to be even more tough in later years , but just because we are mature enough to deal with it , we don’t feel that emotion that we experienced when we were teenagers !!

Teenage life  is like riding a roller coaster. When it starts you want it to stop, but when it stops, you want it to start again……….