Words…

wordsWords does not kill,
  It is a soul slowly screaming.
Words scratching away
 At the inside of your skull,
Sharp pains
 Like beady lifeless eyes;
Puncturing you into a hiss of submission.
 The poison is taunting, behind
A familiar reflection—
 (The enemy is inside)
Scrawling out shadows
 Of a wilted realm
Something else dwells within.
If you don’t get it out,
It will slowly eat you alive.
Each day is spent dismantling
Countless thoughts-
Beauty can be a mystery,
 When you exist in ruins
Advertisements

Quotes from a novel ~ Fearless (Ruin 2.5)

You know how you read a novel , and suddenly you have much more better vision of life , the effect it has on you that not even thousand of lectures or workshops had on you , & the urge to implement it in your life…

“Words can be like X-rays if you use them properly — they’ll go through anything. You read and you’re pierced.”
― Aldous HuxleyBrave New World

So here are the quotes from this novel : Fearless by Rachel Van Dyken

“The human heart beats around one hundred thousand times a day. It pumps over two thousand gallons of blood through over sixty miles of blood vessels in any given twenty-four hour period. The physical greatness would be staggering enough, given those facts. But the emotional capacity? Words can’t explain. Doctors can’t describe why certain parts of your heart react to anger, sadness, joy, and love. Why, when you laugh, your heart laughs with you. When you cry, your heart breaks for you. But the most amazing fact of all? How easily we give our heart away even with the knowledge that in another person’s hands you are the most vulnerable you will ever be. “—Wes Michels

523182b72a7b09cf5d8eb2111ca78116

 

 

“A love so deep. A love so wide. A love so extravagant—that even death wouldn’t deter me from an eternity by your side. Can you imagine that type of love, Kiersten? Can you fathom it? Well, can you?”—Wes Michels

cc5393e45300f8903b409143b36ab734

 

 

“The type of love that makes you want to laugh out loud—scream a bit—run in circles—and then repeat? Yeah that’s how I felt about Wes. Totally. Out. Of. Control. Giddiness.”—Kiersten

large (3)

 

 

“Plato believed that reasoning originated within the brain, but passion? Passion originated in what he called the fiery heart. Separate from all logic—fueled by blood, driven by passions. I for one, completely side with Plato, how else could I explain the way she made me feel? It went against logic. It went against life. Against death. It was transcendent.” —Wes Michels

large (4)

 

 

“It’s funny, we all have hearts, but do we ever truly listen to them? 

How often do we hear our hearts and stop to appreciate the fact that it’s been beating solid, strong, for our entire lives? God willing, your heart never stops until you finally die. It beats harder when you’re sick, it beats softer when you sleep, it beats harder again when you’re excited, and sometimes it physically hurts when you’re in pain.

Your heart isn’t just a muscle.

Though I’m sure people would disagree with me.

Your heart is everything. Why else would God ask for it first? I mean, why not ask for your mind? Your soul? Instead, God asks for our hearts. Our significant others ask for our hearts. Family…they ask for our hearts. Friends ask for our hearts.

It’s not just a muscle.

I truly believed that the heart stored the essence of everything a person possessed. The human body didn’t start with the brain or the legs…no…when we were conceived…the first thing doctors searched for?

The heartbeat.

When you get married…you don’t just ask for your wife’s hand. The first thing you search for? Her heart.

When you’re sick. The doctor doesn’t ask about your heart—he listens to it.

Seems to me like we’ve had it wrong all these years.

If you have a heart—I guarantee—there’s someone out there who wants it. Who’s searching for it. Who dreams about it.”

heartbeats & music

 

“Funny, how you think you can be totally over something. And then one tiny little thing happens and immediately you’re back to that place. I wondered if PTSD was like that.

You live your life every day, going through the motions, and then BOOM! Something suddenly happens to throw you off kilter and the only thing you want to do is go sit in a corner and rock back and forth.”

scared

 

 

“Just because you avoid something, doesn’t make it disappear. I think we’d like to imagine life works that way. But I’m sure if I went back home…everything would be just how I left it and I’d be bombarded with the same memories, the same regrets, the giant never really dies Kiersten, not until you throw the damn rock.”

fly

 

 

“I wonder how many times we think our lives are over—how many instances we scream at the top of our lungs when things aren’t going our way…how often, do you think, the reason for things not going our way is because there’s a bigger plan we can’t see yet? A bigger destiny we could have never possibly imagined for ourselves? Maybe…we’d be a lot happier, if we were silent more.” –Wes Michels

destiny

 

 

“Love is often measured unfairly. People throw the word around so flippantly that society rarely gets a true glimpse of what it means to love something—to love someone so much that it’s the basis for your entire existence. To love someone so much that you’d be willing to trade places—even in death. Well, I can’t imagine a stronger type of love than that of sacrifice.”

love

 

 

“We complete our lists together, we complete our life together. This is what we have to look forward to. Blank pages just waiting to be filled with our story. And the cool part? We don’t know what’s going to happen, but I can make a promise to you right now. Your hand’s going to be in mine the entire time. Kiersten, I swear to never let you go. Through sickness, through health, through happy times, through sad times. I’m yours.” – Wes 

…I could have lost my faith in that moment, instead I chose to believe that I couldn’t control the outcome and just trusted in the hand that was holding mine. Sometimes that’s all we have. A hand.

But most the time.

If we’re being completely honest with ourselves.

It’s all we really need…

wedding holding hands

 

 

“Our steps define us—whether they take us in the direction towards what we want the most—or away from what we love. Our entire lives are based on steps and stages. Funny thing, feet. You control them. –Kiersten Michels”

footsteps

 

 

“When you hear bad news it’s like a literal punch to the stomach—no seriously, your body will create a physical response to your emotional trauma. When you’re heartbroken—you’re chest will actually hurt. Doctors believe that it’s possible to die from heartache, kind of makes you wonder the opposite right? Take for example a heart that’s so full, so alive, so vibrant, so—overjoyed, that it decides to skip a beat, pump a little bit longer, a little bit harder, a little bit…more than the way it was created to be. I think that’s my heart—No I know that’s my heart. When I see Kiersten. My heart is the opposite of broken—it’s full.”—Wes Michels

heart

 

 

Skin. Just touching his skin, feeling his warmth, incredible how much it made me want to weep. Like, actually fall down on the ground and sob my eyes out because by touching his skin, by feeling that warmth, I knew he was alive and by knowing he was alive, I realized…being married to him? It was totally real. Funny, how sometimes we need to keep touching things so we know they’re real—even better? That I’d spend the rest of my life touching him, touching Wes Michels. And every touch would remind me, that blood flowed through his veins, that his heart beat strong, that it beat in perfect cadence with mine. —Kiersten

hugging

 

 

“The battle is in your head. The minute you start giving power to those thoughts you’ve already lost. Fear wins. Don’t let fear win, Kiersten. Love—our love—it can’t flourish where fear is present. Do you get what I’m saying?” 

More tears, and then a muffled, “No.”

Chuckling, I squeezed her harder. “This could be my last night on this earth. I could choose to be afraid and hole up in a hotel room or I could live. Remember you always have a choice. Don’t let your mind cripple what your heart already knows to be true.

together

 

Emotions are a funny thing. They drive us to either make good or bad choices, they can either make our day or ruin it. Emotions for the most part cant’ be trusted because a lot of times, they help us justify our own bad behavior. They allow us to stay mad at someone, to take offense, to keep forgiveness at bay because we’ve been hurt or are still hurting. That’s why, I can honestly say, when I look at Kiersten? It’s not my emotions speaking—but my heart. Because the heart is pure in its pursuit—whereas your emotions can cause you to stumble. Why in the hell would I want to stumble in the race towards owning every part of her soul?”—Wes

love her

 

“Love is beautiful. A gift from God. I think it’s sad, how easily we throw around the word without actually understanding the sacrifice behind its meaning. Love in its definition isn’t about a strong feeling towards someone, but an action. If people truly understood what it was—our world would be changed. Love is sacrifice, it’s holding someone’s hand even though you know they can’t feel it, like Gabe did with Kimmy. Love’s watching someone lose all their hair, and still finding them to be the most beautiful person you’ve ever come across. Love is more action than feeling…Love, isn’t just the way Wes looks at me, but the way he serves everyone around him as if he is nothing—and they are everything.”—Mrs. Weston Michels”

charm bracelet

 

“The thing about memories? They store in your brain. You can go a lifetime thinking you’re totally fine and then boom, something triggers said memory and all of a sudden you’re in the fetal position. My memory had always been really good—something I hated about myself because right now, I really, really wanted to have amnesia. —Lisa”

memories

 

And ending it with my own words … you should chase your dreams , fall in love head over heels coz there is no point in loving with half heart , don’t let the world deicde your fate , and smile coz you are worth it … you deserve happiness … live life to fullest .

What’s a soulmate ??

what's a soulmate

 

Last night I watched this movieThe Host” , & I am not here to talk about the movie or to give review about it , its just that watching that movie surfaced the question of soulmate in my tiny brain …. What’s a soulmate ? How do you know that is THE PERSON , or how does the whole idea of soulmate comes from ? And so I thought let me see what  the world has to say about it …. & I stumbled upon some quotes that really made a bit sense to me … although I still have some doubts , but this quotes tends to feed some of them …

Lilly Leery: What’s a soul mate?

Dawson: It’s uh… Well, it’s like a best friend, but more. It’s the one person in the world that knows you better than anyone else. It’s someone who makes you a better person. Actually, they don’t make you a better person, you do that yourself because they inspire you. A soul mate is someone who you carry with you forever. It’s the one person who knew you and accepted you and believed in you before anyone else did or when no one else would. And no matter what happens, you’ll always love her. Nothing can ever change that. Make sense?

~ Dawson’s Creek

 

“A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely and honestly who we are; we can be loved for who we are and not for who we’re pretending to be. Each unveils the best part of the other. No matter what else goes wrong around us, with that one person we’re safe in our own paradise. Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we’re two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we’ve found the right person. Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life. ”

~Richard Bach

 

“When you’re soulmates, it hits you like lightning, and you know that’s the one person in the world you were meant to be with. You don’t think you’re soulmates; you just know it’s your destiny whether you like it or not.”

― L.J. SmithNight World, No. 1

 

“It amazes me that people think their soul mate is going to show up in their life at this predestined time and be this flawless person. A true soul mate is a mirror of yourself, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. Sure, they have a common upbringing, similar interests but they have the one thing you don’t have which is the introspection to help you become great. What use is a soul mate if they can’t help free you from yourself so you can live your life mission?”

― Shannon L. AlderNever or Forever

 

Weekly Photo Challenge: Foreshadow…. a sign or simply nothing ….

broken lamp

broken lamp

 

Foreshadow : A warning … or an indication … a sign ….

It all depends on how we perceive things , we see a broken lamp , & what thought crosses our mind. Its a sign , to tread carefully ahead , of whatever new thing we are planning to do … or to look back and see what we are losing …

But there is a catch , you cannot look at everything and start taking those as some signs , sometimes they are just mere things happening , while sometimes they mean more than that …

the trick lies in drawing the line so that we don’t start hallucinating , or over thinking

 

Moving on …. is difficult

moving on quotes

moving on quotes

 

Moving on is a difficult process , & I am not talking about any relationship , I am talking about life in general . When you have been steady for a long period of time , its difficult to adapt new change. Its like learning to walk all over again. You are scared to fall down , its not as easy as it was the first time , coz at that time , learning to walk was new to you , you didnt knew how it hurts when you fall down , you were to focused on the new feeling … But when you start it again , its not the same , you al ready know the feeling of falling hard , how badly it could hurt , & than you stop abruptly , the fear taking control over your , turning into the primal instinct. What do you do than ?? How do you move ??

It also gets frustrating with the more time passes , but you have to make a decision quick , coz time is such a tricky thing , it all depends on right timings ….

The last few days of my life have presented me with amazing opportunities, but opportunities that didn’t come without uncertainty. “Would this be a mistake if I did this?”, “I can’t afford to pass this up.”, “I can’t afford to mess this up.”, “What if things don’t go as planned?”

I have seen lot of opportunities in past , also taken some risks , & it was amazing new experience , but damn its also scary ..when deciding on which to choose … But they were small things , didn’t asked for big time commitments , neither had any influence of any other factors on it …But the ones I am facing now …. whoa … too big ….

As said by someone , the decisions you take in your 20’s make your life in 30’s …..

I’m reminded by another quote I recently came across, “Nothing is risker than not taking risks.”

I feel that this statement fits nicely right before the Mockbee quote. Decide on the risk, take it, then “proceed and be bold” moving forward…..

Gosh even this post in confusing … lolz…

Since quite a time my steps have been falling on unfamiliar and uneven turf; not a bad thing – different. I have always reached, but within that circumference of the familiar and reachable, never looking outside my “comfortable.” Today I am finding, I might have to  stretch my fingers into the mists of the unknown just outside that circle. I wonder if I should – just do it. !!!!

Another wise words I remember from somewhere : If circumstances have knocked you flat on your back, find your feet! Put one foot in front of the other, and moveon. ….

I guess this might be my answer …..

Beware : The Tall Poppy Syndrome is infectious

tall poppy syndrome

 

Why  is it that when someone do something different, almost everyone tends to have a say and judge negatively? they always scrutinize and make sure something bad goes with the good deed.

Just to ask…have you done something like that? are you brave and daring enough to do such thing?  if not…..then leave them alone !!

The victims of T.P.S. who have come to my attention lately are Justin Bieber, E.L. James, Danneel Harris to name a few. I probably have a couple of you already rolling your eyes, thinking of how ‘lame’ Nickelback is, or how the ‘Biebs’ sings like a girl.

Well, I’ll tell you this much, he probably sings like a girl a heck of a lot better than we do.

Or perhaps you have been one of the people to have commented on how ‘poorly written’ the popular trilogy 50 Shades of Grey by author E.L. James is? Well, for such a poor writer, she sure has done well for herself. After all, she has beaten out Harry Potter to become the fastest-selling paperback of all time. I don’t see anyone else releasing a top-selling ‘mommy porn’ trilogy which is being credited with igniting the passion back into tons of marriages.

I read the first of the 50 Shades books and I didn’t do back flips over it, I’ve read better books and I’ve read worse, but I do respect the author for what she’s accomplished. I mean, if I get to write and publish a New York Times bestseller, I’ll be one happy girl. Not everyone does that.  And not everyone teaches themselves how to play the trumpet, guitar, and percussions, becoming a teenage sensation before they even hit puberty, as Beiber has done. You don’t need to like’em, but geez, leave them alone! Why can’t we just say “It’s not really my style, but good for them!”

Okay, I’m ranting, I apologize. My point is, it’s one thing to not be a fan of someone’s particular music or writing style, or their acting or vocal talent, but it is quite another to rip them apart at the seams. And it’s not just directed towards famous people, we do it to the general public too, even our own friends and family!

Why do we do that? Why do encourage successful people at first, and then, when they become too successful, we turn on them like a pack of jealous toddlers?!

It seems to be somewhere in the collective thought that we want people to do well, but not too well. After all, if someone does really well, what does that say about those of us who don’t? I have personally experienced this. When I have success, I also hear criticism. There is always one person, or more, who has something negative to say about what I am doing or how I am doing it. I noticed this also with friends who have experienced success. The more success they experience the more criticism they receive. Successful people seem to be the targets of much criticism, down to what they wear and how they tie their shoe lace.

Why are people actually putting in the time and energy to develop websites solely devoted to making fun of these people? First of all, who has that much time on their hands? Second of all, I’m pretty sure the Biebs is too busy buying mansions, participating in charities, and teaching himself how to play new musical instruments to concern himself with any of that sort of stuff.

I’m not a huge Justin Bieber or Danneel Harris fan, but isn’t it a waste of time to sit around making fun of their hairstyles, speculating about their sexuality, or criticizing their musical talent?  After all, they are entitled to whatever hairstyle they want, I don’t care which way they swing, and they DEFINITELY have more musical talent than me.

I am not saying that I have never cracked joked on any celebrity , or that I am saint , but going 360 degree round just to make sure you insult them in the most ridiculous way & making your self happy about that , that’s way too much.   but then I have also had moments where I’ve realized I am sitting on my couch in my pajamas , eating french fries , while they are up there , trying so hard , & making tonnes of money because they followed their dreams!”

And there is something to be said for following your dreams. It takes bravery, persistence, and a lot of hard work to pursue something that you believe in; and getting made fun of by a bunch of goons doesn’t make it any easier. But the ‘Biebs’ and James didn’t give up. Obviously. Doesn’t that deserve kudos?

Seriously they got thumps up from me ….

I ask myself the same question when I am feeling less than happy for someone else’s achievement. It can be human nature to feel a twinge of jealousy when someone is having the success we would like to have in our lives. I like to use this as an opportunity to learn and see if there is anything from their success I can incorporate into my own endeavors.

Thought of the day :

“”Fame has also this great drawback, that if we pursue it we must direct our lives in such a way as to please the fancy of men, avoiding what they dislike and seeking what is pleasing to them.”

~Benedict Spinoza

“Fame is the penalty of success. Jealousy is the penalty of fame.”

~Sivananda

“Envy is when you want what someone else has. Jealousy’s when you also don’t want them to have it.”
― Kirsten HubbardWanderlove

Love Quotes …..

love quotes

 

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.”
― C.S. LewisThe Four Loves

 

taylor swift love quotes

“The way I look at love is you have to follow it, and fall hard, if you fall hard. You have to forget about what everyone else thinks,” she explained to the mag. “It has to be an us-against-the-world mentality. You have to make it work by prioritizing it, and by falling in love really fast, without thinking too hard. If I think too hard about a relationship I’ll talk myself out of it…I have rules for a lot of areas of my life. Love is not going to be one of them.”
Taylor Swift

 

Bob Marley Quotes

“He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.”
― Bob Marley

 

love

“Love is a temporary madness, it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion, it is not the desire to mate every second minute of the day, it is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every cranny of your body. No, don’t blush, I am telling you some truths. That is just being “in love”, which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.”
― Louis de BernièresCaptain Corelli’s Mandolin